Saturday, August 7, 2010
I miss you,today during cellgroup minqi pray for the cg when its come to my turn,minqi pray for me overcome everything,but,the momment,i started to ask god ist possible?how am i going to forget you,and what i heard or what i know,i felt so upset,i am tired,
more and more people is asking me to tell you,should i do that?I am thinking but i know that once i say it there is no turning back,
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Sunday, August 1, 2010
I have mix feeling towards you and someone!
I miss you alot alot,Now days we hardly talk because we have no topic to talk about!
I miss your voice,I want to listen to your voice 24hours,I want to have a never ending topic with you,I want you to reply my msg before i msg you the 2nd time just because you never reply me,I want to be there for you,I want to go back to the past,
I want to see you every now and then,just now i am thinking that i will see you during service at the end no,I just got to know that you now going sangkang to fellowship I nay not be able to see you again,I am tried of waiting yet i cant put a full stop to it.I want to learn to read your mind because i want to know what you really think of me,I want to understand you,I also want you to understand me,I want to depend on you,I still want to give you morning call when there is an early event but now someone is doing the morning call,i no stand a chance to do so,I MISS YOU
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Thursday, July 15, 2010
Had a fun and tiring day at kaisheng chalet,
didt eat the cake>.<
HAHA,Xian bi forgot to bring the card again!!
Six,
Yesterday I was too tired till i fell asleep,
I heard you calling my name but i didt respond to you,me myself also dunno the reason,
Every time after you calling my name we wont talk again,that's why ba,
I didt know just by not responding to you will break my heart so deeply,
I just want to find something to talk to you,
Yet i cant find anything to say or should say i am too afraid to talk to you,
yesterday i kept on repeating something and the sister that is sitting beside you seen to give a face,
also I dunno why,yesterday a sister went to look for you then i asked her to ask you something then she like kept on asking and said that you are very busy,i dont know why but i really mind,
Just by seeing your back made me drop tears
Yesterday night during ah ting chalet she just suddenly said i like you,then another 2sister know already,although i pretend i dont like you but i really want to tell them yes i like you,
I really need you in my life but you are no longer there for me,
Monday, July 12, 2010
This picture i really love it very much where this bring me back to the past,
The fact is Past is already the past,Past mean"once happened"I cannot never go back anymore,there is no turning back,there is no U turn,once you walk forward or towards you can never walk backwards,Ya,i do miss the time we have shared together the time we smile and laugh and cry together but that's the past i can never go back,the only thing i can do is to walk forward or towards,I do miss you even we just see each other not long maybe just a few mini will start missing you,but just by missing you there's nothing i can do,the only thing is to hid my feeling to hid that i am missing you,i know if i will to say this it is very wrong but i am still going to said it,in the Past i always said loving you not a mistake but loving you at the wrong time is a mistake but i will said i love the wrong people at the wrong time,you change no longer the one i know its?!now days you been very straight towards me,I want you to talk to me but i don't want to reply you,i am angry at you yet .....I really don't know,I blocked you on face book but at the end i chose to unblock you," Hurt me with truths, but never comfort me with lies."by Qing mummy my fellow up ",i rather i don't know it from the start because once i get to know i can never stop knowing,"
why is it every time when it come to you lies and then there will be truth ahead of me?!every time i always thought that what people tell me is really what they tell me but then i know,you are the one who asked them to tell me,Yesterday night i called you and that decide my life and my everything,i have come to a this,i told myself if i call you and you are able to talk to me i will carry on to have hope on you but you are not free,and then i give myself a 2nd chance i told myself if i msg you and by 12.30am you reply me i will carry on to have false hope on you but you reply me at 12.32am then everything came to where i can never turn back,the 2min change my whole life put everything to a stop to a end,i will not avoid you but i will just have the right heart to treat you as my friend,maybe just the 2mins
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Saturday, July 10, 2010
Minqi such a good leader,so glad to be under her:D
FIRST CG is better then what i think:D
Then went for service,cool man,
service was like "err dun understand"
Right after service ended,i saw andrea erin kenneth jerold pin chun and some others members,
SUPER MISS them:Went to hug the sisters and talk to the brothers:D
And also after that lee ling and I went to buy FOOD:D
We even play games,the game super hard man,i make the whole cg do four feeth HAHA:D
on our way home,mei juan ahboy marcus clarence lynette grace nigel ruiyi we have so much fun in the bus,the bus is like our's:D
Right after that,Ruiyi lynette clarence and more went to talk talk:DHAHA
And then clarence brought 2guys over,hmmm,one of the guy very cold dont smile dont talk
after that long long i deiced to go and talk to him,i took hour plus to make him smile and finally he smile le:DI am going to add him at facebooK:D
6
I really miss you even though is only a week,just now by looking back at the picture,i really miss the time:(
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Friday, July 9, 2010
我们最终还是回到了原点，回到了我们刚认识的时后，可能比刚认识的时后还要陌生。
我最终还是想你，还是放不下。
我们再也不可能像以外一样，
爱是要放手地，如果真的是你的东西放手了还会是你的，不是你的，你不放手还不是一样都不是你的吗？！
Lastgoodbyee
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Saturday, July 3, 2010
Hahas,when everyone was crying I was laughing,a kind of weird?!O_O
Thanks god that he place me in minqi group:D I believe MINQI Is strong and can change not only my life as well as others,she is going to be a great leader great sister in christ:D
I was quite Happy,haha,because yunyi cant bear to leave me this afternoon,at least there's someone,and OMGOODNeSSS,XIANBIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIii whereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee issssssssssssss myyyyyyyyyyyyyyy carddddddddddddddddddd?????????????Xianbi forgot to give me my card again,OMG,I wait for very long le leh,Hahahs,Thanks god that i receive a best giving award,is it best giving?I guess so err,forgot le,hahas,and also a card from cg,and card from esther minqi hoihaan lynette Vivian,as well as XIANBI but he haven give meeeeee yettttttttt,and also key chain from VIVIAN and COOKIES from esther,Thanks so much guys:DThanks E149 for the love and care,E149 always be in my heart:D
My NEW CG:E527 FIGHT TO HEAVEN
I Told myself I have given up on you,but i dont understand why,today as i look at the screen i am not in the same group as you was somehow sad and disappointed and someone brought something for you,i dont know why,i somehow like mind,I guess I am crazy?!
and today starting i didt see you,i was somehow looking around yet scare will be see by someone,i pretend i dont care but when i see you my mood totally change,why is it like that?If is not them asking and saying i wont even really think of it,just when the by2 music i drop tears,Y?I thought i have let go?SiX can you please get out of my life?HAve i let go?I wont be able to see you every sat already we wont be really able to go fellowship together already,I dont know why,what feeling am i having now?Dun understand<我还是不够mature>
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Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Am i able to forget him even after that?
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Sunday, June 27, 2010
i always end up knowing what you said behind my back how you really feel about me,
people always ask me dont think so much but because you are in it,
i just cant stop thinking,
today although you are just with me but i still felt so lost and miss you deeply,
we are so close yet our heart is so far,
i notice it is really tough for me seeing you but not talking to you,
today the whole day,
i been waiting for you to talk to me,
yes you did talk to me but it is only few words,
Have you ever spare a thought for me?
Dont talk in the past,so now i talk about now,why are you now like that?
Is new friends more important than memebers?
I try to understand you and be understanding yet i just cannot understand a single thing about you,
to be real to you,
alot of people is getting disappointed with you not only me even the brothers,
sometimes have you thought of that,you put ALMOST your effort on the new friends,
yes new friends is very important but what about the members?they are the one that build that cg,have you ever thought of that?
you think that i am not mature enough yet have you ever thought of my age?
or even try to understand me?
Just one word i can say which is you disappointed people around you,yet you dunno,
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Friday, June 25, 2010
我想要忘记你，i even deleted all the msg,but why it is still in my mind my heart,
i now then know that is not a matter of deleting,even that cant help me to rest down,I am totally broke down
Your words your action your image the times we had together kept on coming into my mind,I am tired,i cant be alone,once i am alone i thought of you!
我不想知道什么是爱上你，我不想要这种感觉！我很。。。
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Youth meeting was really great,
the power of GOD,
HEALING:D
after youth meeting we went to food count and eaten,'
just after that we was taking train back,
and i was using hand phone,i didt know at it,
and nearly hurt myself,and get scolded by mrt stuff,OMMY,CANT BELIEVE IT!
when we are going back in the train we talk about you,and alot alot of people guess that i like him but that's the fact la,but i had a talk with grace,i make a promise to myself once i talk to grace,i told myself i Will treat every one very fair,no more treating this person better than the extend,i Will forget him,i haven really drop down until cant climb up,so now i must climb up before its too late:D
From now on,I will change,thanks god for such a great sister because of grace,i finally understand whats the promble lies with me,why am i not mature,this time i dare said i will change and not try to change,and i believe i can do it,because though god all things are possible:DI believe i can forget him as well:D
Be like what grace said,you happy is one day sad is also one day,then why be sad and not happy?so from now on,i will try to keep myself happy^^
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